Soul searching requires that we are first open to the fact we are sinners. We are examining the aspects of our being which we do not necessarily want to look at. As we begin to unfold the inner self we sometimes desire that our own "cup passes over." It is an important aspect of spiritual movement. That we should both desire to see our ugliness and also desire to know that God loves us despite it. This interplay of tension, like twisting something back and forth in our hands enables us to break down the attachments to the world. We venture into the point where our unworthiness blocks out the possibility of God's love and mercy and we are left barren, empty and afraid. We crawl back and recognize that God love surpasses anything we can imagine and we desire the comfort. If we desire the comfort and bask in the security of it we can become forgetful of our sinfulness. This is our Agony in the Garden spiritual moment. And so goes each and every step in our journey until we are refined. As St. Peter wrote "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ"
Litany of Desire
R. Lord, Hear our Prayer
That we desire to be steadfast in our Lenten Journey walking with you daily.R.
That we desire to remove the obstacles that prevent us from getting closer to the Cross.R.
That we desire to deny ourselves so as to be in union with You, Our Redeemer.R.
That we desire to see You in every life, in every face, in every heart of those we meet.R.
That we desire to examine our lives and repent for our sinfulness.R.
That we desire to grow in our faith through the mystery of Christ's suffering.R.
That we desire to carry our crosses daily.R.
That we desire to be generous to others.R.
That we desire to be servants to others without expecting any reward.R.
That we desire to share our gifts with others.R.
That we desire to be poor and detached from material things.R.
That we desire to be in the Presence of the Holy Eucharist.R.
That we desire to make time to be with You.R.
That we desire to make space in our hearts for You.R.
That we desire to love You by being obedient to Your will.R.
That we desire to pray for others and the world.R.
That we desire to Trust in Your Mercy.R.
That we desire to be at Calvary clinging to Your Cross.R.
That we desire to hunger for Christ's suffering.R.
That we desire to die to ourselves. R.
That we desire to share with Mary the sword that pierced her heart.R.
That we desire the darkness that comes before the dawn.R.
That we desire to stay with Our Lord in His time of need.R.